Nicole Levesque's Story


Betrayal At The Hands Of My Own Mother
-Nicole Levesque



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Hello My name is Nicole. I am 33 years old and I was brutally raped and physically abused by my stepfather for 4 years from age 10-14. It has been 20 years since he was arrested and he just was paroled on February 17th.

They say the pathetic excuse for a man is "rehabilitated." Yeah right....I hope they don't want me to believe that garbage. He never has showed an ounce of remorse.

My fiance and I went to OKC, OK for the parole hearing. We walked in the Supreme Court building and who is setting right behind him on his side? My mother. Well, that really shouldn't surprise me. She helped him get away, after he beat me with a baseball bat in the head and left me to bleed to death on the kitchen floor. It is just a shock. I am her flesh and blood and what does she do? She goes back to him. It makes me sick.

The night he was released I was fearing for my life and she was sleeping in his bed. I have always known deep down that she never stopped having contact with the bastard. I just could never prove it. Talk about twisted. She is no better then him. There were times when he was raping me that she could have stopped him. Instead, she allowed it to happen. Whats worse, she enabled him to do it by waking me up at 2 a.m. and telling me that he wanted to talk to me. WTF?? I was a child. When I finally got out of bed and noticed he wasn't in the living room and asked her where he was, she said, "Go into our bedroom." She knew what he was going to do. I begged her not to make me and she made me go anyway. I screamed for her to fucking help me and all she did was sit outside the bedroom door and do nothing. Her ass should have been in prison with him. Once again she has shown me that she never cared. She is dead to me. This is the ultimate betrayal. Talk about sleeping with the enemy.

I have suffered with PTSD for years. However, I have made remarkable progress in therapy. I am finally able to feel safe and be intimate with a man. I refuse to let my mother and stepfather control my life anymore. I am not their victim. I am a survivor and I control my life. I work for a child abuse organization here in Missouri where I live as a victim advocate and I believe that has helped me heal. It is rewarding when I am able to help another survivor find hope of recovering.










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